In a world of two,
I feel alone.
In a world of two,
I feel burdened.
In a world of two,
I am tired.
In a world of two,
I am miserable.
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It was just an overwhelming feeling,
But now marcid is accompanying,
My heart longs for a home,
My soul is crying for its alone.
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I don't know if this is pregnancy hormone talking,
Or I'm just very very tired.
Tired of this all.
It feels all the things I'm scared in a marriage,
My previous phobia of doing everything alone,
Becomes a reality.
In a world of two,
It feels all responsibility fell on me.
In a world of two,
It feels I'm walking on eggshells,
Making everyone happy,
While I'm falling apart.
I can't undo this.
And it feels so much heavier,
Now that I have nowhere to run,
Nowhere to hide,
Nowhere to be left alone,
And breathe for awhile.
I want home.
