Vulnerability

I've lost count how many days I wasted away since the incident.
Granted,
Obstinate and I,
We go hand in hand.

Egotism and I,
We are one of the same.

But it is not like I did not try.
I did.
They did not accept.

What else should I do,
If people did not accept?

I've lost count on how many times,
I wished I could disappear.
I've lost count on how many times,
I wished I was dead.

I had not left my bed,
Only for trivial things.
I stopped caring for anyone,
And stopped caring for my own.

The inevitability of being hurt,
They pretty much what I am.

I am just so done.