Will Never Be Enough

Ever since I started my job,
I've had this mindset in my mind,
About all the things I want to do,
Want to buy,
For my parents.

I just realized,
Even with all my wealth,
Even if I sell all my organs,
I will never be able to reciprocate my parents' love.

All I do will never be enough.

But that doesn't mean I will stop.

Husband got a massive fever,
And with me being pregnant,
Umi and Abah took CRK to come to Perak with us.

They stayed for a night,
Sent Faez to clinic while I was in school,
And had to drive 7 hours back to Kelantan.

I just want to cry.
Cry and be forever in their embrace.
I'm married and is going to be a mother,
But still is a small child whenever it comes to Umi and Abah.

I've hurted them so many times,
When I was a child and in my adolescence,
But their love never faltered.

I know I will never be half the parent they are,
That is why I am scared if one day,
I don't know what to do with my life,
If I lose them when Allah SWT decides to invite them.