Darkness Approaches

I feel small,
Drifted apart,
Withering away,
Wasted.

I just feel so tired lately,
And there is no pretty way to say,
That I wanted to die.

With these marriage thingy,
And my insistence on rejecting everything,
And die alone at the ripe age of 30.

With the posting thingy,
Where everything is fucked up,
Our Malaysian Education Ministry is fucked up,
And everything is falling apart.

The internship,
The thesis,
Every single thing.

I'm 23 but I'm just so,
So tired.

I'm tired of everything.

Sometimes I have this expression on my face saying "Stay away if you want to keep your soul",

And yes,

I meant it.