Hafizi Saari and Stranded

I've been awfully close to Piji lately.
We chatted a lot,
And we teased each other a lot.

I was scared.

What if it will turn sour?
What if there will be feelings involved?
What if we wanted to be more than friends?

I want a bond with someone like I did with Amir.

Amir was my Kent.
He was the Dr.Jekyll to my Mr.Hyde.

No one will replace Amir.
But I want a relationship with a guy,
Who won't involve lust feelings.

I want a relationship where I loved them.
Mutual understanding,
Trust,
Friendship.

So I met with Piji today.
Call it our "not-date".
It was great.
Though it scared me that I was the first female he ever went out with.

Not even when he was with Jannah.

I'm trying to be positive.
Maybe he will be like I am with Abid.
Bro-sis relationship.

I'm counting on it.

And right now I'm stranded in Pekan Tanah Merah.
Because I parked my car in the RedWalk night market.
So here I am.
Lounging alone in Masjid Besar,
Waiting for Isyak.

It is kinda weird that I don't feel scared,
Nor panicked.
Because it is home.
Hometown.
Where my heart resides.
It's not much,
But it's home.