Longing

I wanted to be discreet,
I wanted to solve everything alone,
But I know my limit,
And I know I couldn't.

That's why I have the girls and boys,
To solve them for me.

Somehow,
Sometimes I think letting it all out,
Makes me weak.

I don't want them to know anymore,
I don't want them to solve it for me anymore,
Because I want to decide it by myself.

It's mine,
The problem,
The burden,
The scars,
The wounds.

All mine.

I don't think I'd ever open up my heart,
Nor my feelings to anyone,
Anymore.

The cycle just keep on spinning,
Each time,
The same steps.

I make it seem to guys,
That I'm easy and pliable,
That they have me easily.

Then I turned on the "start" switch,
And everything changes when Fire Nation attacks.

They'd be dumbfounded,
They'd be left confused,
Because I'll have the upper hand.

I'll be the one leaving.

It's so easy to leave.

By reality,
I'm the bad guy.

But I also wants the thing I used to have.
Because people wants thing they can't have.
As easy as that.

It's just I am tired.
So I don't give a shit anymore.
Things happen.

I'm here for a stroll.

I lost interest in, well, everything.