Protecting My Heart

He will hear my calls from miles away.
He will love to travel but keep it as secret.
He will know my sad heart even when I smile.

"What are you doing?"

I'm making a spell for my true love.

"But you said you don't want to fall in love."

That's the point. 
The man I'm talking about doesn't exist. 
And if he doesn't exist,
I won't die of a broken heart.

To have something to love,
To have someone you held preciously,
It's terrifying.

They're your strength,
But also your weakness.

If you have nothing to love,
You have nothing to lose.

You're free.

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I really,
Really don't want to fall in love again.
I don't want to hope,
Don't want to have expectations,
Don't want to have something precious for me,
Just so it would be taken from me again.

I don't want to cry or grieve,
Or die of a broken heart.
Call me a coward,
But I have had enough.

To held and to protect.