Pimples

Lately,
The only source of my stress,
Is a name that goes by,
Razak.

He is our PK 1,
In SK. Kampung Tengah,
But Jai and I decided to call him;
"Jis".
Which is the abbreviation of;
"Najis".

We kept on laughing,
That if we're too stressed by his psychopathic tendencies,
We would shout out,
"POOP!!!"
So the entire school could hear our voices.

And I think it's because of him,
I keep on stuffing my face with food,
Because food keeps me out from killing him in my mind,
A thousand times a day.

And also pimples.

Actually,
I'm not much troubled by pimples' existence,
But what I'm concerned of is,
The places they're at.

Usually on my chin.

And with Google's help,
I knew that the pimples' location on my chin,
Means that my PMS and reproduction system,
Are not stable.

That my ovaries and uterus are not strong.

I don't want that.
I want to be able to bear a child.
I want twins.
Though maybe twins is a very thin probability,
I still want to be able to have my own children.

To be called mother.

I'm scared.

The only thing I would be proud of in this world,

Being called "Ibu".