Forgotten

Today was Anikh's wedding day.
I should feel a bit anxious,
Knowing that we are of the same age,
Being cousins and all,
Yet he surpassed me in marriage.

But I don't feel that at all.
I know I am not adequate enough,
In being someone's wife,
Albeit wanting to be a mother so much.

I am not quite mature enough,
I still argue with my siblings,
Even when the issue is trivial and insignificant.
Sometimes I rage on Mia when she misbehaves.
Reflecting on my actions,
That is not a mature person would do.
And I am not mature enough to be involved with marriage.

Also,
When I was jogging,
I tried to remember HIS face,
But it occured to me,
That I can't remember his face.
I remembered his voice though.
But not his face.

I couldn't forget everything he ever was,
But I couldn't even remember how he looked like.