Marriage: Yay Or Nay?

I've been proposed,
Or in Malay literal sense;
"Dirisik - slash - dipinang".

There were two guys,
I don't know either of them.
It was the parents that drove me to the brick of insanity.

Guy 1:
During my cousin's wedding,
His Dad got a glimpse of me,
And probably thought I was good for his unmarried 29-year old son,
So my uncle is playing Cupid for both parties right now.

Guy 2:
The Mother saw me during one of my tarawikh at home,
And straightforwardly ( and may I say, relentlessly) pursued Mum,
For my hand in marriage,
For his unwed 30- year old son (WTF?).

I was baffled by this news,
For a month ago,
I was planning my solitary life with my sister,
And this nip in the bud was..
A bit thrown off from my previous track.

My friends told me not to think about it too much,
What happen will happen.

But this is me we're talking about.
I'm an over - thinker,
So as per usual,
This upsets me so.

I weighed the options,
I asked for my friends' opinions,
But in the end,
All I can ever muster,
Was "eff it all".

Previously,
I thought I had two choices.
Marry Guy 1 or Guy 2,
After the taaruf of course.

But awhile ago,
I made a new choice between the two,
Which is option 3;
I could choose neither,
And continue with my original goal.

I don't know,
I don't know anything anymore.

I really wish I would not have think of this deeply,

I wish I could just shut my brain off,

And just let the path takes its course,

Or maybe just takes off and run away from this insanity.